Ignatian spirituality evolved from the conversion experiences of Inigo Lopez y Loyola, a Basque nobleman, and soldier, in 16th century Spain. After his conversion, he changed his name to Ignatius and pledged his life to serve God, the Divine Majesty. He recorded his experiences in his journal, known later as the Spiritual Exercises of St Ignatius, and helped others to make the Exercises as a way of deepening relationship with God, by following Jesus.
Ignatius’ life story and the Spiritual Exercises have helped many through the centuries to process their own spiritual journey and response to spiritual intimacy and union with God.
The Examen is a prayer of consciousness/awareness of where God is in one’s day and life. It is a prayer that Ignatius recommended that Jesuits and Ignatian laypersons make to review their day.
Whatever you are doing, that which makes you feel the most alive... that is where God is.
My day is the place where I meet God from moment to moment. My day is also the place where I fail to meet God from moment to moment. My God is continually revealing himself to me in the places, events, and people of my day. So it would seem rather important to look at this day in which my commitment to God finds, or fails to find, its expression.
My day is the place where I respond, or don’t, to the moment to moment calls to love and service of those around me. My day is where God is a moment to moment exercising his loving providence over me. My day is where I allow, or don’t, God to work his will for me. How can I grow in an awareness of and sensitivity to God working in my own life? The simple way is to look back over the day at some time when I have the leisure to do so. Not just to look back in general terms, but to look back seeking to find where God has been active for me in my life today.
Prayerful reflection is an important aspect of Ignatian spirituality. St. Ignatius Loyola, the founder of the Society of Jesus, was especially keen on this prayer of reflection on the day. For the Jesuits he founded, he insists on two 15-minute periods of such prayer each day. This prayer has variously been called the Examen, the Examination of Conscience, and, more recently, the Examen of Consciousness, or the Review of the Day. It is almost as if Ignatius were saying, “How can you say you are living a Christian life if you never reflect on it? How can you say you are doing God’s will if you never look to see what you are really doing? You want to serve Christ and live a more Christ-like life, well then, reflect on how your day has been, and let the experience of the day teach you what it will.”
Most Christians believe God is working through his Spirit in their lives – unfortunately few reflect on this crucial fact of their lives. The Examen is a short prayer exercise that can help develop in me a greater awareness and sensitivity to the concrete ways God has been working in my day for me. This greater sense of God with me leads me to a more accurate and spontaneous response to the initiatives of his presence. Traditionally there are five aspects or moments to the prayer of Examen, and on any one occasion, perhaps one or more aspects will predominate. So these five aspects are not a syllabus to be got through. I give any one of these aspects the time I desire and need.
The First aspect is the fostering of an attitude of thanksgiving or gratitude. There is nothing that has not been given to me. I am always on the receiving end of the gift. I myself am God’s greatest gift to me – I am the gift by which I can know every other gift. I am the gift in which I can know my own giftedness. So I spend what time I need to become aware of my need to be grateful, to see the giftedness of my own life and living. As this gratitude touches me I express it how I will to Father, So and Spirit.
The Second aspect is to ask for a light. I beg the Spirit to enlighten me to see what the Spirit wants me to see. In other words, it is not my analysis of the day which is important. Nor is it my judgment of what is fine or fitting that is central. Nor has this enlightenment anything to do with my own leanings towards a morbid introspection. I ask the Spirit to show me in the everyday events and people of my life where and how God was present and working for me. I am seeking to find God. The Examen is positive. Without this prayer, for the light, I could all too easily poke around within myself in such a way that scabs are knocked off wounds that would heal very well if only I left them well alone.
The Third aspect of the Examen is to playback the day in such a way as to find God in all of that day of mine. I remember the places I have been in; I recall the activities I undertook; I see the people I was with. In other words, places, occupations, people. I ask the Lord to show me where he was present, in me and in others. To say that God is everywhere may be very true, but it is not very helpful here. It is probably more helpful to remember that God has been acting for me where his Spirit has been at work for me. I notice the Spirit at work for me when I become aware of the gifts of the Spirit. Hence I become aware of God present and at work for me wherever I notice the traces of the Spirit in those places, in those occupations/activities, and among those people of my day. So where have I been aware of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, trustfulness, gentleness, and self-control? (cf. Galatians 5:22). I notice each place and express my gratitude. Where I was able to open myself to the work of the Spirit I give deeper thanks. Where I closed myself to those gifts I ask for sorrow and express my repentance in some appropriate way seeking reconciliation.
The Fourth aspect of the Examen automatically flows into the Fourth aspect, which is the deepening of the gifts of sorrow and gratitude. I beg the Lord to deepen my awareness of not allowing him to work for me in his gifts, or of not allowing him to work through me for another, or through another for me. I praise the Lord for those times I did let him work for me when I co-operated with his gifts.
On any one occasion of praying the Examen, I may just wish to take one gift of the Spirit, for example, joy. I see where I noticed joy in my day, and give thanks; the places where I entered into the joy of another or allowed another to enter into my joy; the times' joy was shared. These were the concrete moments when God was acting and working in his gift of joy for me and for others. Conversely, I become aware of the times and places when I prevented God acting for me in his gift of joy; when I would not enter into the joy of another, or when I was a kill-joy. I see this now and express my sorrow. And so similarly with the other gifts of the Spirit which are being continuously poured out on my life moment to moment.
The Fifth and final aspect of the Examen is to take a look ahead and to ask for what help and guidance I will need. I can foresee fairly clearly the next day or half-day; what places will I be in? what people will be with me? what occupations will I take on? or be involved in? With this person I will need the gift of patience; in this place, perseverance; with this occupation, the gift of gentleness, if someone is not to be unduly hurt, etc. I ask for what I see I need very simply and humbly with trust in the loving providence of Father, Son, and Spirit – God-with-me.
The practice of the Examen will help foster a growing sensitivity to God, the Trinity, moment to moment at work with me and for me, and through me for others, and through others for me. My life becomes one of greater ease in ‘seeking and finding God in all things’, as St. Ignatius would put it.
David Keith Townsend, S.J.
The Seven Fountains Spirituality Centre
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